I prime myself for chambers wake
I break myself for chambers sake
and through the fire
and primed in pain
I find my body split in twain
in the horizon
my own desire
the final moment
my funeral pyre
through flesh and skin
and blood and bone
my body pierces as victims moan
What purpose does my life make
For who's desire do i now break
and make my mind broken in time
Eternal sin, soul bound crime
I have a devil on my shoulder
And an angel in my head
One wants me to survive
And the other wants me dead
I know not which one
Tells the truth or tells the lies
All i know is that they both
Wear a blind disguise
Of each other and themselves
Confusing my perception
Maliciously dishonest
Fueling my regression
Into the idea of self
From era's long ago
Losing who i am in thought
And everything i know
Picking up the pieces
Of my consciousness inside
Reestablished self image
Formed from the divine
Blaming all my problems
On demons in my head
Wishing for salvation
From angels that want me dead
It doesnt always happen
and when it does it usually takes some time
before i realize
and suddenly things take a different perspective
a weird itch that wasnt there before
"i want to listen to epic anime opening themes"
I should put on this youtube video for 'banger openings full versions'
I dont remember it being a tab
but im already there
"Dude it sounds so good, im really enjoying this music"
Thanks
…
Who did I just thank?
Myself?
"Myself?"
Oh, it's just my thinking voice
Thinking thoughts
that thinking voice of mine
I dont recall ever being taught about the "thinking voice"
or proper "thinking voice" etiquette
It's always been there, so I never questioned it
But I cant recall if others have their own "thinking voice"
Thinking thoughts along with them
Inside their brains
…
Is it normal to have a "Thinking Voice"?
am I normal?
"I mean it's normal to me"
Which is true, it is normal to me
"But maybe what im trying to get at is"
but im not exactly the most "normal" person out there…
"It's okay and I'm fine"
Am I actually fine or do I just want to be fine
"As fine as I can be"
As fine as I can be
as fine as I can be
as fine as I can be
asfineas I canbe
asfineasIcanbe
Icanbe
IcanbeasfineasIcanbe
I can be as fine as I can be
and that's fine
"Maybe that's what I'll start to tell myself"
All I can be is fine and that's fine
I feel like I've died
(A couple times now in fact)
Not physically at least
(My heart's still ticking)
Just… who I am as a person…
I can say with confidence that the person I was before
The silent kid nobody would have the time for
The awkward kid nobody wanted to put up with
That kid died a long time ago
And then the teenager who
filled with rage
and fear
and loneliness
and pain
at having to be the person
he didnt want to be
That teenager is also long gone
Everytime someone dies
someone new takes their place
and has to pick up the pieces
of a life they know only as a fading whisper
up until they die again
and again
from all the litle things
adding up and piling on